Monday, January 23, 2006

Rejections...Gotta Love'em...NOT

So much for loving Mondays.

This has been one bummer of a day. It's cloudy outside, I have the day off which is terrific, only BF walks in with a letter from an agent I queried. After they had asked me to send them the full, I waited for two months and because this agent is my dream agent, I didn't query anyone else.

And I hate being psychic because as soon as he handed me that letter, I knew.

I would have received a phone call if it had been an acceptance. I knew.

The cloud of despair was already forming around me and I stood there, almost out of body like in a trance, and opened the envelope slowly. I knew.

And there it was. Sorry, but we can't offer you representation.

I didn't tell BF. I just stood there. Then, I put the letter in a spare room I have and closed the door. I didn't want to even look at it.

I walked back out and sat down at the computer and with fifty-thousand things to do that were on the agenda today, I couldn't lift a finger.

And I haven't moved since. I know all about rejections. I know to get it out there and everywhere just in case one turns you down. I know to kiss it off to at least I tried, but this freaking hurts.

And I know better. I know how the publishing world works. And yet I fell right into that trap - of thinking that I have what she wanted.

Well, I didn't have what she wanted and I'm trying to get rid of this cloud that has enveloped my head...and it won't go away.

I do have a publisher and a good one, Zumaya Publications, but I just wanted that one chance, that one chance to get a traditional publisher that actually paid advances and all the perks they could give out because they have the money where small press doesn't.

Ah well...guess I have a house to clean...if I can just find the strength to get up.

6 comments:

  1. Save it. Have it framed. Let it be your motivation to show her after you get your bestseller. ;)

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  2. Thank you, FTS. I just might do that. Once I get rid of this cloud of doom...lol.

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  3. Yeah, like FTS said, you can photocopy it and send it to them with Nanny Nanny Boo Boo written across the top!

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  4. Ahh, I'm so so sorry. Rehections just plain suck.

    But for some weird reason, I always did my best writing after a rejection. I guess they propped me up, I don't know. Send it out again and to several at a time. There are a lot of really awesome agents out there!

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  5. It's one rejection. Don't give up! You can't give up. I need you as a role model, because I am about to send out my query letters!!

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  6. I feel your pain... as any fellow writer does. If you are like me--take a day (or six) to let the cloud dissolve. You'll get back on track soon.

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